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Food for thought for the Democratically inclined, by burgundy


Screed: intro and part I

Screed part II and the Chamber of Secrets

Screed part III: Revenge of the Sith

I see a lot of the behaviors mentioned in myself as well as others. I am forgiving of them to a point, since they fall under the category of 'self-comforting' like nail-biting, nervous laughter, what-have-you. Just so they don't become all-consuming. Just a thought.

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I made a crack about collecting unicorns, causing a 'hey!' from a friend who has some unicorns in her collection, though hers are black and powerful and not the typical My Li'l Pony ones.

I think it's a passivity thing. I was noticing how a couple here at work had on fantasy creature t-shirts; his had a dragon, hers a unicorn (maybe it was a pegasus, I forget) and I thought 'typical.' Upon examining why I thought that, it's because they sort of fit with the gender roles. Unicorns are often depicted as sweetness and rainbows and light, and are based on horses (herbivores)- harmless. They're even white, for cripes sake. The horn is more for decoration, or a vehicle for some sort of benign power like healing. The you have your dragon, carnivorous, aggressive, strong. I'm over-simplifying (there are kick-ass unicorns and those treacly Pocket Dragons) but it was an interesting observation. I think it's a wee bit jarring to read a story (or see a depiction) of a unicorn goring someone with it's horn. I've also run across dragons that are peaceful wisdom-dispensers, and all the ones I can immediately think of were written/depicted by women.

The funny thing is that I went through a fluffy unicorn phase when I was young; as I recall, it was during my middle school years when I was trying my hardest to fit in. Then when I got to high school it was dragons, and I felt more comfortable with myself (I don't think there were enough kick-ass unicorns that I found to latch on to). Mielikki is even associated with unicorns, at least in the D&D set if not in actual Finnish mythology, but it fit because her name comes from a word that translates as 'pleasing'. This is part of why I changed it later, I was feeling like it was a little too passive for me. Before middle school it was cats and cheetahs, after high school it was wolves. Phoenixes (phoenices?) made it in there in the last couple of years, though I don't identify them with myself so much as my spiritual work. The black cats is almost a coincidence; I just happen to like the color black and cats and am amused by the witchy connection, but I don't identify with them much otherwise.

Not sure where I'm going here, just thinking aloud.

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I didn't get the shift. The suspense was killing me so I saw the scheduling guy was around and asked him. Turns out someone with two weeks more tenure than me has asked for it, so she'll be getting it. Fuck. He looked around at other openings, but they were almost all night shifts, or had a Saturday shift, or something like that. I want out of the unit, but not badly enough to work nights. Fucking hell. He did say that he was going to keep an eye out for me, since people quit all the time and something might come up.

Wow, talk about turn around!

Or, Bitch and Ye Shall Receive

So the scheduling guy came to my desk and said "I found a shift for you, the full-time shift is Monday, Wednesday, Thursday and Friday. The hours will either be 9am to 7:30pm or 10am to 8:30pm." When I mentioned choir, he said "Okay, we'll drop Mondays so your days will be Wednesday through Friday."


HUZZAH!

It's with a crabby supervisor, but I can deal with crabby. Even if he's the second worst supervisor here, that's still an improvement.