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Well, it's getting to crunch time. I have faith that something will come up before we end up on the street, but of course Eric is taking the whole situation a lot more personally. He's depressed, probably clinically, and that affects his motivation which is the last thing he needs. One of his (probably soon to be former) friends harshed him in a way that was probably meant to be constructive but ended up sounding bitchy and critical, which makes his self-doubt worse (is it the job market or me?)... it just spirals down. But happily, my brother the resume god has offered his services, and Eric's broadening his searches to other fields. One of my friends, Gene, says that this is a great opportunity to start down another career path... perhaps this is so. I think I would try to be a weather girl!

Eric seems more hopeful, and I'm trying to be optimistic. Gene says I should make it perfectly clear to Eric what my expectations are- i.e., that I expect not to be poor, and if he can't meet that then I will split. (Gene's not real sharp on the whole motivation thing here- I mean, fuck!) I explained to Gene that the truth is, I expect to love and be loved in return. I was poor when I met Eric; if we're poor together I still feel like there's a net gain.