austin_tycho | (no subject)

I don't know why it's this way, but I have had occasion to have some variation of this discussion with several different people this week. And one of the reasons why I can speak these words is because it's the same discussion that I've been on the other side of with other people, and with my gods, on more than one occasion. Maybe you need to hear this now. If so, hear it in whatever voice you need to hear it in.

I love you. You think that someday, you're going to slip up, and I will discover what a worthless, terrible person you really are, and I will leave. But I'm here, and I'm telling you- I don't love you because of what you say, or do, or look like, or accomplish, I love you because of who you are. I believe that you are a good person. I believe that you are worth giving my love to. You might fuck up and make me angry or hurt me, but I am upset at what you do, not who you are. You are a wonderful, amazing, incredible person, worthy of love and capable of love. Know that, and let that fact sink into your bones, so that the next time you think "I suck" maybe you will hear another voice that says "I love. I fuck up, but that's okay, because at the root of it all, I'm trying to express that love. I'll keep feeding the things that make it easy for me to show my true nature as a loving person, and quit feeding the things that build up the illusion that I am anything else."

And because it's always about a song with me, here's a song. Substitute your own, PRN, but recognize the sentiment, own it, breathe it, know it.

Within You Without You
George Harrison

We were talking about the space between us all
And the people who hide themselves behind a wall of illusion
Never glimpse the truth, then it's far too late when they pass away.
We were talking about the love we all could share when we find it
To try our best to hold it there
With our love, with our love we could save the world- if they only knew.
Try to realize it's all within yourself
No one else can make you change
And to see you're really only very small,
And life flows on within you and without you.

We were talking about the love that's gone so cold
And the people who gain the world and lose their soul
They don't know, they can't see, are you one of them?
When you've seen beyond yourself, then you may find
Peace of mind is waiting there
And the time will come when you see we're all one,
And life flows on within you and without you.