State of the meds

I have been taking my new anti-depressant medication for six days now.

I think I'm kind of in the hole, where my old med has worn off and the new med hasn't really kicked in yet. It blows. I've been having these fairly intense depressive episodes that last like... three hours. I'll go from relatively okay to feeling like everyone hates me and everything is completely terrible and will claw my way back up and be back to okay. I can see it happening. I know when it's going on that it's all just neurotransmitters, but it doesn't stop me from feeling like absolute shit. So I just try to ride it out and use my words so the people around me don't freak out when I bust out crying for no apparent reason.

My head is like Texas weather this month. It's soggy and foggy! It's sunny! It's sleeting! Have a thunderstorm! Enjoy a warm day! Now freeze your ass off! Good luck trying to make any sense out of this shit!